everything that is falling apart

so. i'm alive. and uh can't say much else except for that. i am majorly stressed about everything and anything that is thrown my way. and even things that i really just shouldn't have to worry about. i don't actually know why i even bother coming to deviantart anymore. but i do. and most of the time it's when i am at sarah's house. odd. anywho. so...apparently i am a bitch according to ONE person. and everyone else just loves me. it is so nice to have people just say they love me for absolutely no reason. but i am really glad i got that note in ap bio...first off everyone in there loves me and has no problem expressing it, and mrs evans is like a mom figure who i can tell anything to, and so it really helped me to have her there to just hold and hug. since...there wasn't anyone else really. i mean someone older. i swear...i really need to break down and cry. or take a weekend off, maybe i should have gone to chattanooga this weekend. nah. unless i don't see jason this weekend, then i REALLY just should have gone. it would have helped me to get away from everything. which i really need to do. talk to people who are not at school, but are willing to listen to me because they have to because they are family. i just don't really feel like i know anything anymore. but it seems like i see more and more couples around the school these days which doesn't help anything. i know i have jason. but we aren't technically going out. because he doesn't have what he thinks is enough money. which in all honesty he IS broke, but i don't care. and i wish there was some way for me to bring that up and not have him be like oh...well i just dont really want a girlfriend right now. which is pretty much what he has told anyone who has asked him. i think i am going to shut up now though so that anyone who reads this, if you read this far, doesn't think i am a hopeless romantic, although i am, and...yea.

i hate being stressed out over everything.